Paranoia

This poem sums up exactly how life after cancer has been for me......

Paranoia
© Copyright by Linda Nielsen

I know I have aches and pains, I've had them both for years.
But now each brings a panic, and a fresh new set of fears.

If I even feel a tiny bump no matter of its size,
I feel my cancer has come back, to claim another prize.

Fear is with me all the time, it haunts me night and day.
To think this batch of cells gone wrong, just yet might get their way.

The doctors nod when I dash in, and send me on my way.
Assuring me that once again, I'm really here to stay.

For in a car I could crash, or get stung by a killer bee.
Maybe take a header down some stairs, this all could happen to me.

I have to learn that dangers lurk, and recurrence is but one.
But not worrying over trivial things, is easier said than done.

Having lived through such a scare, it's hard NOT to be afraid.
For if they'd only say I'm cured, I'd really have it made.

I know in time this will subside, my worries should be less.
Life for me will once again, be filled with happiness

Linda Nielsen

Stupid Cervix!

So, remember how I had that cervical cone biopsy back in 2009 for carcinoma in situ? Well ever since, the scar tissue that resulted from that procedure has caused problems. Every time I go for a pap smear, my doctor is unable to get an adequate sample of endocervical cells. More often than not, they are not present on the pathology report, so I am having surgery done on Monday to make sure we've not been missing anything. My doctor is doing a hysteroscopy and D&C, which will be a breeze. I'm just happy it is finally getting done. I don't want to take a chance, considering I haven't had the hysterectomy they've been telling me to have done for the last 2 years. Cross your fingers that the pathology comes back good!

WICKED!!!!!

I got to cross another item off of my bucket list last night! Jeff and I went to see the musical, Wicked. It was absolutely AMAZING!!!!



















































As soon as they started to sing "For Good" I immediately thought of Lisa Collins and tears started streaming down my cheeks. I miss her so much.

Big day for my family!

Today was my appointment to get my aerolas tattooed on. The aesthetician said the appointment would probably take about 2 1/2 hours, but it ended up taking 3 hours. The first part was signing consent, picking out size, and color. That may not sound hard, but it really is! I was happy to have my friend, Jenn with me, so she could put her two cents in. So once we got the size and color picked, she determined that I would need a local anesthetic (lidocaine) to numb the area on only one side. Turns out I have more feeling than I thought! My plastic surgeon came in to give the injection and then the aesthetician started the tattooing. It wasn't too bad, even on the side that wasn't given the injection. The color and size seems good, so I'm happy. I go back in 8 weeks and we can determine if they need done again. At that time I am also getting a complimentary hour long facial, which I think is wonderful!

While I was getting my tattoos, my sister Erika was in Virginia getting her prosthetic ear. Here is a video that shows Bob Barron's work. It is amazing! http://www.prosthesis.com/video.htm

You can't even tell that her ear isn't real! I'm so happy for her!

















Slowly, but surely, Erika and I are getting though this crap!!!

CANCER SUCKS!!!

I'm kicking off my 2012 Relay for Life fundraising to get everyone ready for October, which is Breast Cancer Awareness month.

CANCER SUCKS HOODED SWEATSHIRTS

$45 Shipped in the US
$40 If picked up
They are available in the following colors and sizes....

SMALL- Black, Deep Coral, Hot Pink, Light Pink, Sport Grey
MEDIUM- Black, Hot Pink, Light Pink, Sport Grey
LARGE- Black, Hot Pink, Light Pink, Sport Grey
XL- Black, Hot Pink, Light Pink, Sport Grey
XXL- Black, Hot Pink, Light Pink, Sport Grey
XXXL- Black, Sport Grey



CANCER SUCKS T-SHIRTS (Back by popular demand!)

$25 Shipped in the US
$20 If Picked up
They are available in the following colors and sizes....

SMALL- Tangerine, Sport Grey, Hot Pink, Navy Blue, Lime Green, and Black
MEDIUM- Tangerine, Sport Grey, Hot Pink, Light Pink, Navy Blue, Lime Green, and Black
LARGE- Tangerine, Sport Grey, Hot Pink, Navy Blue, Lime Green, and Black
XL- Tangerine, Sport Grey, Hot Pink, Light Pink, Navy Blue, Lime Green, and Black
XXL- Periwinkle, Tangerine, Sport Grey, Hot Pink, Light Pink, Navy Blue, Lime Green, and Black
XXXL- Sport Grey, Navy Blue, Lime Green, and Black



CANCER SUCKS WINDOW CLINGS


$6 Shipped in the US
$5 If Picked up
Available in Blue or Pink



If you are interested in purchasing anything, please message me (Beth Brown Gibbons) the following information...

ITEM(S), COLOR, AND SIZE DESIRED
YOUR ADDRESS IF BEING SHIPPED

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Make sure you invite your friends to check out this fundraiser on Facebook (Link below). THANK YOU!!!

CANCER SUCKS FUNDRAISER FACEBOOK EVENT

"I'm Gonna Love You Through It" - Martina McBride

PHEW!!!

My ophthalmologist's office called to let me know all my scans came back normal! I am so relieved!